Stemming the Tide of Depression with Transcendental Meditation

In September my grandfather passed away and there were a few things about that which set me into a severe depression which no one noticed, not even my wife.

The depression lasted until late February, but it’s been a recurring thing for me since. I’ll get all melancholy, and now that my wife knows what I was going through, she knows what to look for.

Since breaking through the depression, I’d found myself going in and out of depression. Thoughts of suicide ran rampant through my mind on a daily basis during the depression, and lets just say it’s a good thing I don’t own a firearm.

My reasons for trying Transcendental Meditation (TM) stem a lot from the depression I fell into, caused by events following my grandfather’s passing.

In early November I got shingles, I knew this was from the stress of my grandfather’s passing. I also understood that I was beginning to spiral, though I hid it well from my wife, family and co-workers.

The catalyst to get me into TM was a breakdown I had at work, caused by an interaction with a co-worker, who said, “I don’t care what’s wrong with you.” His statement sent me over the cliff.

After work that day I cried in my car for twenty minutes. It was hard sobbing, uncontrollable crying. The type of crying you’d do as a kid. I called my wife on my way home and told her I needed to do something, and soon.

After that day, I knew I had two choices, be done with living, or truly start living. TM is my way to live.

When I attended the first introduction meeting I knew I would do it before I walked in. The next week I took my first lesson. That was one week ago. I feel more awake, and for the first time in a very long time, I feel alive.

TM is a lot like other meditations, except for the mantra. When you learn TM, your teacher gives you a mantra, it’s a word, phrase or combined words which create a tone, that centers you in a way that makes your body drop all its defenses and sends you spiraling into a deep pool of bliss.

I can’t tell you my mantra, because each one is special to each individual. I keep it as a sacred thing.

I can only speak of my experience, but TM was my last stop before jumping. I’ve backed away from the cliff in the last week and I’m now more comfortable in my skin than I’ve been since before my parents were divorced, when I was 8.

If you have any question or comments, please ask them.

 

12 thoughts on “Stemming the Tide of Depression with Transcendental Meditation

  1. Hi Brian!
    My name is Rose Hoffmann. I help manage the Transcendental Meditation blog, and I’m wondering if we can repost your 2 blogs about your experience with the TM technique. If you’re interested, get back to me at rhoffmann@tm.org! It was great to read your story. Hope to hear from you.

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  4. U told my story only it was my best friend and Im still in the deep 2 yrs later, Ive become agoraphobic , I have looked into TM but I can barely take a shower, thank u for ur insight and I will try to reconsider making TM a true option

    • I’m sorry for the loss of your friend, and I understand how difficult it is to come out of a depression. With TM I’ve honestly never felt better about who I am, what I’m doing with my life, and what I’m doing with it.

      As someone who’s gone through depression I want to help others who’ve gone through the same thing. Through TM and talking about TM I believe I can help others who’ve gone through depression.

      I hope that helps and I hope you’re able to leave the house, attend a meeting and get started taking back your life.

    • Susie, I’ve been meditating for many years, and from my own experience and the research I’ve seen, I feel certain you will find TM helpful. To find a TM teacher near you, you can call 888-LEARN-TM (888-532-7686) or if you can’t muster the energy to call, there’s a form you can fill out at

      http://www.tm.org/contact-us-alternate

      and someone will get back to you.Depending on where you live, it’s possible a teacher would come to your house to give you private lessons. (Because of the agoraphobia.) Please take action on this, I’m sure you won’t be sorry.. On a gray day, the sun is hidden behind the clouds, but it’s still there; TM will help blow away the clouds.

  5. thank you for your comments Brian
    I didn’t experience a death, but a number of other things
    that have lead me into depression too
    I’m now more encouraged than ever after reading your comments
    kevin

  6. Awesome for sharing your story Brian! I was in a very similar mental state when I started TM 14 years ago and have from the very first moment never missed a day because of all the amazing benefits…Stick to it, my friend, it only gets better and better!

  7. My father believes TM to be a gateway or vulnerable state of becoming possessed by a negative or evil spirit. Do you have any insight on this?

    • When I told my mom that I’d started doing TM she said something similar. My mom lives across town from me and we don’t see each other as often as either of us would like, mostly because of my day job.

      The first time she saw me after I’d been doing TM for a few weeks, her words were this, “I have my boy back.”

      The transformation, which is the way I truly feel, changed her thoughts on TM and she is curious about doing it as well.

      I’d tell your father that TM is the same as prayer, or any type of act which gets you closer to your beliefs.

      There are those who are devout religiously and they’ve said they feel closer to their religion because of TM.

      Thank you for your comment and I hope my reply helps your father understand TM a little better.
      Brian

  8. “I can’t tell you my mantra, because each one is special to each individual. I keep it as a sacred thing.”

    Technically speaking, there are only a few TM mantras. Think of them as blood types: different kinds of people get different mantras.

    That said, the fact that you never say your mantra out loud, or write it down (or sign it or type it phonetically, or semaphore it) means that it has become intimately part of you. Think about it: you say your name out loud far, far more often than you do your mantra. Western science doesn’t know how to evaluate what that potentially does with respect to meditation practice, but I’m pretty sure that eventually scientists will find an explanation for why it is such a good thing to never again make your mantra as concrete as when you first learned it.

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